You're Not Alone
Being depressed isn't a fun thing, when I was younger I always wanted to be depressed so I knew what it felt like but at the time I didn't know the effects it had on our minds. If anyone reading this is depressed or needs someone to talk to, I am always here for you. This community is here for you. Your friends are here for you

There is a video on YouTube that I found called "A letter to my best friend

My depression started off with self image, then it lead into emotion ones. When you lose a parent it's so different to what you think, just imagine coming home from school everyday and see that your brother, sister, father, mother or pet aren't there. It's painful and we try to imagine it as a dream like it isn't real but we have to bring ourselves back to reality when they aren't there. My depression then lead into other issues in life. I messaged a friend on discord and after we talked about it for a bit I messaged him this.
"Everyone goes through a stage of grief in sometime during their life, mine happened when I just turned 12, I was still immature at the time and never expected my mother to pass, but you never can expect a person's death. Normally you'd hope for it to happen when you're an adult, but we never really want our parents to go. I had never experience such a big event in my life, my nana had died when I was 4 but I don't remember her as much. This event that had happened changed my life in ways I would never imagine, even today I sometimes still think it's a dream when really I have to bring myself back to reality. The thing that annoys me the most is that we still don't have an answer on why she died, my dad spends most of his time fighting with the government anxiously waiting for anwsers. This time is mainly when my depression came and I never really noticed it before but over the time it's started to really effect me, in ways that aren't healthy. I might try to distract myself by going on my computer, reading or even talking to a friend but eventually it does come back and the tears come out. My last few weeks with my mum were probably 3 weeks before she died as she was out a lot of the time. I came home from school on the 14th of December 2016 and found out my mother died, and spent the rest of the day balling my eyes out with family. Although I did go to school the next day I was supported by friends and my classmates, but I guess none of them could really experience my pain. I branched out more to my online friends and told them how I really felt first before my real life friends and have only just started to tell a few of my friends I go to school with. I keep getting trauma from the experience and wish it never happened. After it did happen though a lot of things changed in my life, my dad was in debt for the first time, I got depression and never told anyone, I felt alone for a long time and still do."
Anyone reading this, please promise me that if you feel you have too much weight on your shoulders then tell someone. It helps, a lot and you're not the only one in our cruel world that's suffering. A lot of us are.
My point of this thread was to spread awareness to all of those who feel that they're alone, because they aren't.

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