One of my only true friends, which I now only have 3, was bullied by a friend of hers, bc of a fight that she didn't want to happen. I got on his case, and he made her cry, and I'll never forgive him for that. He was a jerk to me and her, and yet she still forgave him. Something I will not. When I told her I wouldn't talk to her if I had to talk, see him in skype chat, etc., she said "too bad, he's my friend." And I said "Well, I'm not then." And I'm really depressed and crying rn. IRL, I don't have any true friends, bc they always ignore me when their other friends are there. And I just sit there, seemingly happily, but my heart breaking inside. I already have to deal with it IRL with my supposed "friends" and my brothers, who are always calling me annoying, a brat, a liar, etc. And I really don't wanna lose more friends....but I did. I lose them every day. My sister cares, but she goes away along with my eldest brother in 2-3 weeks. The PC used to be my only source of happiness....now it's just making things worse. I might leave PZ for a few days...or weeks...depends. I don't ever want to lose friends, but I do. And my life is even worse. I might just leave the PC for a few days and just get on my tablet to watch YT, or read. Depends. I can't be sure....but right now. I'm gonna play MC for maybe, but probably not, the last time. I'll get on PZ later tonight....if anyone wants to see me IG, I'll be in creative. I also might selfharm if it comes to it. But hey! "Don't worry, be happy."
Bye!
