some of you might know me, some of you might not. who cares anyway, if u dont that's cool u dont have to read but if u do know me please read.
my names Lewie, I used to play pz back in like 2016, 2017. I used to pose as a 14 year old, however this was totally untrue. im not going to expose myself, because it would make me feel much worse than im feeling right now.
throughout my life on pz, I'd blame other people for my actions. I used to pick on certain people for no reason. I literally hated Kirstree for no reason. maybe one of the reasons was that she took Sarah's job as admin, but that was irrelevant. Kirstree deserved that position just as much as Sarah did. She worked hard and Sarah ended up resigning not too long afterwards anyway.
today I looked back through my account and I hate myself so much. I read through all my messages, all my posts, everything. I am so so sorry to everyone. I really didn't understand life, I was a kid who thought the entire universe evolved around me. Sadly for me, I learned that this wasn't the case, the hard way.
I'd also like to say thank you. party zone changed my life. This server taught me so much and I made some great friends, some who might actually turn out becoming life long friends too. Since leaving party zone, and Minecraft all together ngl, my life has become utter crap. I ended up getting really really sad about the smallest things, some of this might be due to my age, but my therapists say different. Whenever I'm having a bad day I think of this server and immediately getting much happier. I dont think I would've been able to survive my high school days without my memories of this server and my friends from this server. (sorry im probably not making any sense.)
I'm not asking for forgiveness, because I'm very far from it. I just wanted to say thank you, and apologize to those of you I've hurt in the past. You don't have to reply, I just want to put this out there. (also im not gay, pretty sure I made a thread on that, just like to clarify, im not gay, I was just a kid looking for some attention. <- pretty awful thing to do for attention, I know.)
lewie.
my names Lewie, I used to play pz back in like 2016, 2017. I used to pose as a 14 year old, however this was totally untrue. im not going to expose myself, because it would make me feel much worse than im feeling right now.
throughout my life on pz, I'd blame other people for my actions. I used to pick on certain people for no reason. I literally hated Kirstree for no reason. maybe one of the reasons was that she took Sarah's job as admin, but that was irrelevant. Kirstree deserved that position just as much as Sarah did. She worked hard and Sarah ended up resigning not too long afterwards anyway.
today I looked back through my account and I hate myself so much. I read through all my messages, all my posts, everything. I am so so sorry to everyone. I really didn't understand life, I was a kid who thought the entire universe evolved around me. Sadly for me, I learned that this wasn't the case, the hard way.
I'd also like to say thank you. party zone changed my life. This server taught me so much and I made some great friends, some who might actually turn out becoming life long friends too. Since leaving party zone, and Minecraft all together ngl, my life has become utter crap. I ended up getting really really sad about the smallest things, some of this might be due to my age, but my therapists say different. Whenever I'm having a bad day I think of this server and immediately getting much happier. I dont think I would've been able to survive my high school days without my memories of this server and my friends from this server. (sorry im probably not making any sense.)
I'm not asking for forgiveness, because I'm very far from it. I just wanted to say thank you, and apologize to those of you I've hurt in the past. You don't have to reply, I just want to put this out there. (also im not gay, pretty sure I made a thread on that, just like to clarify, im not gay, I was just a kid looking for some attention. <- pretty awful thing to do for attention, I know.)
lewie.
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