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If you don't know what LOA means - Leave Of Absence

Recently I've been getting into a very bad corner of my life. My depression has got worse, even if my insomnia has been a lesser pain. I've been getting into a worse fashion of hating myself - my weight, looks, and voice - and have even debated cutting, but I'm too much of a wimp to go through with it, so don't worry about that.

Now I'm flunking several of my classes. Algebra has dropped severely and my parents are getting a tutor. From my school, to add salt to the wound. I get easily embarrassed and have many insecurities so this will be painful for me to follow through with.

I've also recently been getting insulted a lot more... and they're going to me. Even several people who are actively on the forums I've been noticing they either get angry with me quickly, insult me, strike nerves, or just seem to hate me. I could point out several players on the server and forums, but I'm not gonna start a riot.

I'm going to try and cut myself away from many things, although I'll try and keep some form of touch to them. Please don't think this doesn't just affect me at any way, it's difficult for me to cut away from the people that make me feel good inside and lead me away from my depression that haunts me. I will be active on the forums the best I can: but don't expect me on the servers often, if at all.

So for now, PZ, I'll be on LOA. I'll still attempt to communicate to the server from MineChat if possible, but don't expect me much. I am NOT gone permanently, however. Don't think I'm just leaving. I have too many memories. Leaving PZ would be a stab to the heart for me.

I hardly even doubt some of you care, but that's just my depression talking. Just wanted to say this for anybody who does care to read this. I'll try to see you all soon, PZ. So for now, goodbye.
 
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Absol I'm so sorry about what is happening. If you need anyone to just talk with, please come to me. I'll always be here if you need someone to talk with and I hope you can come back sooner than possible. Please stay safe. I can't imagine losing someone like you, one of our most helpful active players on the server. Also if anyone is harassing you, tell me. Tell any staff member, we all want to help you. Harassment is not something any of us take lightly, and will do anything to keep you from it. I hope you get better and make it through the depression. We'll miss you. Come back as soon as possible Absol. We'll be waiting for you, always.
 
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Absol, I feel you. Please don't cut, it doesn't help. Believe me (You know that I would know ;( ). Make sure to keep in touch<3
Ps: I will never hate you<3
 
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Absol1991 said:
I know, it's just the little things get to me.
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D/w Let the little things go, I've been at least physically or verbally bullied everyday, and I let minecraft relax me, But what gets to you..? Maybe get a councillor?
 
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D/w Let the little things go, I've been at least physically or verbally bullied everyday, and I let minecraft relax me, But what gets to you..? Maybe get a councillor?
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If I get a councillor that'll just make it worse. I'm already getting a tutor so that makes my mood worse..
 
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.... Absol, I understand the situation you're in. The only possible way I can help you cheer up somehow is to offer you my sincere words. I hope for the best of you and I hope you and I can continue to be friends. Honestly, I wish I can take the burden of what you're going through away from you, and have myself deal with it. It's sad to see a friend like this. We'll miss you sticking around all the time and such. The server loves you. We hope things can get better for you. Try not to harm yourself in any way. Stay strong, don't give up, and do your best in all effort of you getting better with things. Just remember, you have friends rooting for you, who care for you, love you, and will never leave your side. Take care.
 
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.... Absol, I understand the situation you're in. The only possible way I can help you cheer up somehow is to offer you my sincere words. I hope for the best of you and I hope you and I can continue to be friends. Honestly, I wish I can take the burden of what you're going through away from you, and have myself deal with it. It's sad to see a friend like this. We'll miss you sticking around all the time and such. The server loves you. We hope things can get better for you. Try not to harm yourself in any way. Stay strong, don't give up, and do your best in all effort of you getting better with things. Just remember, you have friends rooting for you, who care for you, love you, and will never leave your side. Take care.
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DragoJoeYM said:
I'm so sorry , I have been through this .
DONT EVER THINK OF SUICIDE , it is just the easy way out . think of the people who love you , imagine how much they will miss you .
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Thanks you guys.
 
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I sent you my opinions in a private conversation, as they're extremely personal, however, if you ever need anything, you know where to come. This applies for anyone by the way, not just absol c:
 
ABSY IS BACKSY!
 
Absol1991 said:
If you don't know what LOA means - Leave Of Absence

Recently I've been getting into a very bad corner of my life. My depression has got worse, even if my insomnia has been a lesser pain. I've been getting into a worse fashion of hating myself - my weight, looks, and voice - and have even debated cutting, but I'm too much of a wimp to go through with it, so don't worry about that.

Now I'm flunking several of my classes. Algebra has dropped severely and my parents are getting a tutor. From my school, to add salt to the wound. I get easily embarrassed and have many insecurities so this will be painful for me to follow through with.

I've also recently been getting insulted a lot more... and they're going to me. Even several people who are actively on the forums I've been noticing they either get angry with me quickly, insult me, strike nerves, or just seem to hate me. I could point out several players on the server and forums, but I'm not gonna start a riot.

I'm going to try and cut myself away from many things, although I'll try and keep some form of touch to them. Please don't think this doesn't just affect me at any way, it's difficult for me to cut away from the people that make me feel good inside and lead me away from my depression that haunts me. I will be active on the forums the best I can: but don't expect me on the servers often, if at all.

So for now, PZ, I'll be on LOA. I'll still attempt to communicate to the server from MineChat if possible, but don't expect me much. I am NOT gone permanently, however. Don't think I'm just leaving. I have too many memories. Leaving PZ would be a stab to the heart for me.

I hardly even doubt some of you care, but that's just my depression talking. Just wanted to say this for anybody who does care to read this. I'll try to see you all soon, PZ. So for now, goodbye.
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Shes back. Shes been so active, on the forums, and MC.
 
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