i need to cry for a sec.

[auoc]

i need to vent/rant/beg for help/scream for a sec.btw this is really long so if you don't want to hear me sob about my life sorry then leave @_@.
long story short, i'm not in the happiest of moods as of late.
my dad's house is absolutely horrible, and he's freaking SCARY. second off, my best friends, i had three, are kind of no longer...my friends. I'll call them... Ashley, Maxine, and Shelly. Ashley and Shelly have been my closest, most trustworthy friends, since I was in preschool. They know secrets, quirks, everything. We know everything about each other.
Here's when Maxine comes in. Maxine is a girl i'd never talked to until Ashley and I ended up in class with her this year. Maxine sat next to me in two classes, so we'd become pretty good friends. We liked similar stuff, we were close. That's when I introduced Maxine to Ashley. and they become good friends, but still include me. Except, now they don't.
Maxine and Ashley brush past me in the hallways and don't offer to hang out or study, and don't even talk to me anymore. Worst part? Ashley is becoming a stereotypical popular girl. She looks like she would be, but was very punk-rock with a touch of glitter and girly-ness. Now, she brags and gossips, wears really short skirts and shorts, crop-tops and piles of makeup. Maxine was a popular girl, but she was a bit quirky and nerdy like me, but not anymore. and Shelly's making new friends and abandoning me. Worst part? they all stared at me like i was literally the scariest, most horrific and disgusting person ever, when i told them I was Pansexual and possibly Gender-fluid.
The only reason I actually still go to school, haven't probably died, and haven't ran away, is because I had friends. I don't have that now. A horrible father, and no friends/bullying.
I don't know why i wrote this, i just needed to gush, since i haven't had anyone to gush to. If you read, thanks. if you didn't, also thanks?

 

[nighty]

I'll just say this: it's definitely not your fault your friends decided to leave you; you're a great person and being unique as you are is okay. I'm sure there are many more like you.
Now, if they just ignore you now, they're no longer your friends. Your job? You have to go and make new ones. Go talk to someone different, find out what they like, and who knows, you might make a new friend.
Now, I myself am very introverted, but I still try my best to make friends. It may not always work, but there's always that one person that isn't interested, it doesn't mean there's no one right for you.
Go and talk to someone new.
And also remember that here in the PartyZone community we will always try to cheer anyone who may be experiencing tough times, so you can always turn to us if you need someone to talk to.

 

[Elkiehh]

I know this sounds cliché, but if they don't hang out with you, they're not your real friends. If you ever need to vent more, feel free to shoot me a message.