Forum Start Over/Confession

[Lolbye]

So this post wont be up long. But,
Im not getting a new account.
Im starting over. Im changing my username. (Later)
Deleting every message on my page except 1 or 2...
The reason? Because that isnt me. This isnt me. I wanna be more myself, down to earth on my forum page.
Why this all of a sudden? I feel everyone hates me irl. And i want to know if you will hate me for being myself. Including the gay profile picture. That im very obssessed with.... but also irl. Im not myself. I dont know who i am. I know little about myself. I plaster smiles across my face in school. I cant help myself. I embarrass myself daily to make my friends smile. And i rarely get bullied. So why am i not happy? Because im scared of people judging me, i feel people hate me. Im constantly paranoid. I feel sick a lot. I dont want to be here. But to be honest i cant do anything. Im just. Sick. And i know someone whos reading will know what im talking about. I want to be more open. But things like: "Igloo" come out of my mouth. Aka i shout random things in fear or being open.
Im sorry for the posts deleted.

My confession? I dont think we need a genius to figure that out.

 

[Aminuh]

I have to say, I don't know you very well but to come out and become who you are/be yourself is very hard and very brave. Many are influenced by friends. I hope this goes well for you. You are strong, don't allow fear to get to you.