You cry and you scream and you act miserable. You skip out on showers and lay in bed for days on end. You have pity parties. You get irritable and you push everyone away. You cry in bed, you cry in the shower, you cry in your car. You let your heart ache. You let the pain throb and pulse through your entire body. You blame them, you blame yourself, you blame the world. You exhaust yourself with "What if I did this.....would we be together." You pretend you are getting better, only to have a relapse. You constantly just eat and drink. In hopes that you will forget them for one night. However, this will only backfire and you'll end up crying harder and trying to call them. You consider giving up on life. You gather the strength to get up and take a shower, only to break down once you start the water. You attempt to completely remove them from your life. You can't bear being around anyone or anything, because every thing around you reminds you of them. You will watch romance movies and love songs. You have your good days and your bad days. You distract yourself at times and other times you sit semi comfortably with your misery. You wait for them to come back, no matter how unrealistic it is. You wait until one day you wake up and the sun shines a little different. The wind grazes you and there's a slight spring in your step. One day you catch yourself laughing genuinely, and things seem okay. You go out with friends and family again. Except now you're not distracting yourself anymore. You still have those Saturday nights when you sob while watching The Notebook wondering if they'll ever come back. But that feeling doesn't last. You wake up on Sunday and feel alright again. Happiness will grow again. It just takes strength and patience.
For the past few weeks, this is what i've gone through. And I kept it to myself. But so many people on here loved and cared about me and they didn't even know what was going on behind the screen. So I just want to take a big thank you to them.
@Arlah @FireLord @Calico_Kat @Fox @Meeponn @AnEmerald @AugvstxD @Nerdehhh @EwMaya @Twisted_Cheshire
But I also want to thank a lot of other people that have always been nice to me and treat me like I was something special even though some of them barely knew me:
@Miikaa @Kaylum @Chrissy @HeartEyesHowell @iiBubble @Derpiie
Basically, The Entire Partyzone community!
For the past few weeks, this is what i've gone through. And I kept it to myself. But so many people on here loved and cared about me and they didn't even know what was going on behind the screen. So I just want to take a big thank you to them.
@Arlah @FireLord @Calico_Kat @Fox @Meeponn @AnEmerald @AugvstxD @Nerdehhh @EwMaya @Twisted_Cheshire
But I also want to thank a lot of other people that have always been nice to me and treat me like I was something special even though some of them barely knew me:
@Miikaa @Kaylum @Chrissy @HeartEyesHowell @iiBubble @Derpiie
Basically, The Entire Partyzone community!
