Today, I reached my 2 year milestone on the forums, and in August it was my 3rd year on the server, i think its a huge milestone.
I thought I'd tell you a lot more about me incase you didnt know, since ive been kinda secretive now and then.
My name's Alice, I turned 13 on October 5th, I'm 5'7, and im mistaken for a 14/15yr old a lot. I'm "geeky" as i like to say.. i wear glasses, i need braces, my username is RedHatesBlu and my best friend since we were 7 up to present is Ethan, a.k.a BluHatesRed. My favourite game is Overwatch and Minecraft, and my favourite game character that i actually look up to is Lena, a.k.a Tracer from Overwatch.
But..
I thought i'd tell you some other stuff that could be close to home to some of you.
When I was younger, I had trouble holding a pen/pencil right until year two in school... I'd shout out answers that other kids had just said in Maths when i was at the same age because i didn't listen when the teacher taught us how to divide. I've always been cheerful, Kind, creative, and i've always tried my best - most of the time that's been for nothing. I try to have a laugh when i can, even if the teachers at school may disaprove; in school i practically never get told off. In comprehension school now, i work hard - but have a laugh. In primary school, i was petrified of getting told off. I'd have my shirt tucked in (in still do, of course), i'd wash my hands before school, adjust my tie and make sure it would stay on; I'd make sure my blazer carried everything I needed. Also, at school i was always happy and cheerful, and especially talkative that one of my best memories of the first year if primary school - reception - was the teacher sighing and going "Yes... Alice." when my hand shot up. Also, weirdly, I was terrified of the toilets at school, and I still am! In younger primary school years, I'd grt so scared that if i were to need to toilet, I'd wet myself so my mam could come in and give me some fresh clothes.. anything but those toilets...
Year 2 was when i met my best friend Ethan. I remember it clearly, because I sat next to him in Math.. i wasnt in his proper class, only math. I remember when i came in one day, upset and tears still running from my face, he said "your crying" and as i tried to hide my face he ran and hugged me. I couldnt have been happier. He told me that we lived in the same street and that we could go outside together. When i struggled with fractions he'd try his best to explain them to me. Whenever i felt scared of the toilets and i tols him i'd wet myself, he would say "No," and that he'd stand outside the girls toilets if i wanted.
Year 4 and up was the start of my social anxiety. I started getting scared of conversation that wasnt with friends, close family, or teachers i knew of... i'd get scared when called on in class, shrugg when a kid asked me something - i'd simply giggle when kids came and asked "Hey! Could you draw me?" Just to get out of any humiliation. I'd cry if i were to be told off which was only once or twice a year - I'd cry if a kid were to say something i found humiliating, mean, selfish, or if they grassed me up for doing something they forced me to do. People took advantage of me beinf quiet and made me change their answers to right on tests, and then theyd grass me up since they wouldnt do that to mine. People would ask me questions i didnt want to answer. To this day me and ethan are still teased about if we're going out or not - NO. We're not. We're just so close, so close that we're getting the same pendant for christmas... for eachother.
In year 5 and 6, i developed a sort of.. mini depression. I was sick of school. My boring, normal, generic life was just affecting my head. I was at a crossroads. I was too scared to do anything, and frankly, i wouldn't have done anything anyway. It felt like i was in a deep, foggy forest.. going in circles, big beasts at every turn and ir felt never ending that comprehension school was coming... then i'd be free. Everything would be new - a new challenge, a new adventure, and i just needed it to come already.
I joined partyzone October 2015, when i was in year 6 (the year of my SATs with my 'mini depression'). You guys really cheered me uo and i think you guys helped me keep powering on. You kept me going. You were my torch light in that dark, foggy forest. Thank you.
Thanks, guys
Thanks partyzone
Youre like my family. I love you all. I'm not gonna leave. Tbh this is only the beginning haha
I thought I'd tell you a lot more about me incase you didnt know, since ive been kinda secretive now and then.
My name's Alice, I turned 13 on October 5th, I'm 5'7, and im mistaken for a 14/15yr old a lot. I'm "geeky" as i like to say.. i wear glasses, i need braces, my username is RedHatesBlu and my best friend since we were 7 up to present is Ethan, a.k.a BluHatesRed. My favourite game is Overwatch and Minecraft, and my favourite game character that i actually look up to is Lena, a.k.a Tracer from Overwatch.
But..
I thought i'd tell you some other stuff that could be close to home to some of you.
When I was younger, I had trouble holding a pen/pencil right until year two in school... I'd shout out answers that other kids had just said in Maths when i was at the same age because i didn't listen when the teacher taught us how to divide. I've always been cheerful, Kind, creative, and i've always tried my best - most of the time that's been for nothing. I try to have a laugh when i can, even if the teachers at school may disaprove; in school i practically never get told off. In comprehension school now, i work hard - but have a laugh. In primary school, i was petrified of getting told off. I'd have my shirt tucked in (in still do, of course), i'd wash my hands before school, adjust my tie and make sure it would stay on; I'd make sure my blazer carried everything I needed. Also, at school i was always happy and cheerful, and especially talkative that one of my best memories of the first year if primary school - reception - was the teacher sighing and going "Yes... Alice." when my hand shot up. Also, weirdly, I was terrified of the toilets at school, and I still am! In younger primary school years, I'd grt so scared that if i were to need to toilet, I'd wet myself so my mam could come in and give me some fresh clothes.. anything but those toilets...
Year 2 was when i met my best friend Ethan. I remember it clearly, because I sat next to him in Math.. i wasnt in his proper class, only math. I remember when i came in one day, upset and tears still running from my face, he said "your crying" and as i tried to hide my face he ran and hugged me. I couldnt have been happier. He told me that we lived in the same street and that we could go outside together. When i struggled with fractions he'd try his best to explain them to me. Whenever i felt scared of the toilets and i tols him i'd wet myself, he would say "No," and that he'd stand outside the girls toilets if i wanted.
Year 4 and up was the start of my social anxiety. I started getting scared of conversation that wasnt with friends, close family, or teachers i knew of... i'd get scared when called on in class, shrugg when a kid asked me something - i'd simply giggle when kids came and asked "Hey! Could you draw me?" Just to get out of any humiliation. I'd cry if i were to be told off which was only once or twice a year - I'd cry if a kid were to say something i found humiliating, mean, selfish, or if they grassed me up for doing something they forced me to do. People took advantage of me beinf quiet and made me change their answers to right on tests, and then theyd grass me up since they wouldnt do that to mine. People would ask me questions i didnt want to answer. To this day me and ethan are still teased about if we're going out or not - NO. We're not. We're just so close, so close that we're getting the same pendant for christmas... for eachother.
In year 5 and 6, i developed a sort of.. mini depression. I was sick of school. My boring, normal, generic life was just affecting my head. I was at a crossroads. I was too scared to do anything, and frankly, i wouldn't have done anything anyway. It felt like i was in a deep, foggy forest.. going in circles, big beasts at every turn and ir felt never ending that comprehension school was coming... then i'd be free. Everything would be new - a new challenge, a new adventure, and i just needed it to come already.
I joined partyzone October 2015, when i was in year 6 (the year of my SATs with my 'mini depression'). You guys really cheered me uo and i think you guys helped me keep powering on. You kept me going. You were my torch light in that dark, foggy forest. Thank you.
Thanks, guys
Thanks partyzone
Youre like my family. I love you all. I'm not gonna leave. Tbh this is only the beginning haha
