Welcome, I'll get straight into my story.
Before I start, I swear if I see comments being sarcastic like, "oh, poor stupid little girl can't see her little friends" I'll SOMEHOW have them deleted. I'm not in the mood for this.
I'll start with the biggest part of my story currently, my best friend. We'll call him... George. I'm not saying real names due to keeping their privacy. So, I met "George" back in Kindergarden or Year One, I forgot which one. And he never really talked to me, since we didn't have a class together. He was my friend though. So, Year Five. Last year, he was in my class. Last year, he was in my schedule with me, and I sat sort of close to him. I also had known.. erhm, Albert. He was another great friend of mine. And then we'll call the next person.. Jake. And the last friend, erhm, Joey. So, George, Albert, Joey and Jake were my best friends. I couldn't ask for better friends in my entire life. In school we did everything together. We got in trouble together, we'd stand up for eachother, and be overall great friends. But..
Secondary School ruined it. I was put in NO classes with any of those 4, and that messed me up. The day of orientation I was alright. But on the first day, I realized.
"We have 6 hours of school.. 18 minutes to shove food down my throat.. but wait..
I don't get to see ANY of my friends."
I had a BAD breakdown. I have a few female friends, but they weren't in my classes either. I. Lost. My. Mind.
I was going to school at 6:30 AM to get in and wait for them to get there to talk to them.
You either stay late or come early (EARLY EARLY) to see people not in your class. We have alphabetical seats EVERYWHERE. EVERY. SINGLE. CLASS.
EVEN LUNCH!
So, now you're wondering, hey, what about this year?
So, I usually get to talk to them a little bit, but not as much. My anxiety has relapsed, my depression, and my social fears. They were the glue that held my breaking heart together. Gone.
Now, you're probably wondering, "What happened today?"
They left me.
Here's the story.
So today was going as usual. Crappy. I was heading to second period, Drama and I stopped "George" and asked him this.:
"Do you think I'm annoying?"
He said Yes. I didn't think too deep into it, cause he makes lots of jokes. So I headed into Drama, was working on my work as normal. I never saw any of my friends the rest of the day.
When I was heading out to dismissal, I saw "George" and I talked to him. Seeming annoyed, he walked to his sister. He walked outside with her and went to the highschool side with her. No one talked to me at dismissal like usual.
All my friends were with other people. I came to one of the groups, and said Hey. One of the new people said, "Who's that?" One of my female friends turned and said, "I don't know.". I can't really stand this anymore. People tell me, "Make new friends!" This is time 3 that all my friends have completely abandoned me, the first time I made new friends. Second time I sort of did. Now third, I don't think I can.
This is a really big problem for me, so if you see me just disappear, don't try to contact me, post on my account, or ask around where I am.
Before I start, I swear if I see comments being sarcastic like, "oh, poor stupid little girl can't see her little friends" I'll SOMEHOW have them deleted. I'm not in the mood for this.
I'll start with the biggest part of my story currently, my best friend. We'll call him... George. I'm not saying real names due to keeping their privacy. So, I met "George" back in Kindergarden or Year One, I forgot which one. And he never really talked to me, since we didn't have a class together. He was my friend though. So, Year Five. Last year, he was in my class. Last year, he was in my schedule with me, and I sat sort of close to him. I also had known.. erhm, Albert. He was another great friend of mine. And then we'll call the next person.. Jake. And the last friend, erhm, Joey. So, George, Albert, Joey and Jake were my best friends. I couldn't ask for better friends in my entire life. In school we did everything together. We got in trouble together, we'd stand up for eachother, and be overall great friends. But..
Secondary School ruined it. I was put in NO classes with any of those 4, and that messed me up. The day of orientation I was alright. But on the first day, I realized.
"We have 6 hours of school.. 18 minutes to shove food down my throat.. but wait..
I don't get to see ANY of my friends."
I had a BAD breakdown. I have a few female friends, but they weren't in my classes either. I. Lost. My. Mind.
I was going to school at 6:30 AM to get in and wait for them to get there to talk to them.
You either stay late or come early (EARLY EARLY) to see people not in your class. We have alphabetical seats EVERYWHERE. EVERY. SINGLE. CLASS.
EVEN LUNCH!
So, now you're wondering, hey, what about this year?
So, I usually get to talk to them a little bit, but not as much. My anxiety has relapsed, my depression, and my social fears. They were the glue that held my breaking heart together. Gone.
Now, you're probably wondering, "What happened today?"
They left me.
Here's the story.
So today was going as usual. Crappy. I was heading to second period, Drama and I stopped "George" and asked him this.:
"Do you think I'm annoying?"
He said Yes. I didn't think too deep into it, cause he makes lots of jokes. So I headed into Drama, was working on my work as normal. I never saw any of my friends the rest of the day.
When I was heading out to dismissal, I saw "George" and I talked to him. Seeming annoyed, he walked to his sister. He walked outside with her and went to the highschool side with her. No one talked to me at dismissal like usual.
All my friends were with other people. I came to one of the groups, and said Hey. One of the new people said, "Who's that?" One of my female friends turned and said, "I don't know.". I can't really stand this anymore. People tell me, "Make new friends!" This is time 3 that all my friends have completely abandoned me, the first time I made new friends. Second time I sort of did. Now third, I don't think I can.
This is a really big problem for me, so if you see me just disappear, don't try to contact me, post on my account, or ask around where I am.
