Yesterday I was speaking with my sister for about 1 hour. My parents told me I had to get over the shock and stop imagin things. They were too frustrated. Deep inside I knew they were right. I knew I had to get over my sister's death. I knew I had to stop talking with my her.
My therapist told me I was special. She said I was very bright and that I was getting better everyday. I also heard her telling my parents that I can "win" schizophrenia without medication, but I had to believe them and be more open-minded. I could see the difference in my family since that day. My sisters were more OK talking to me, without being insecure or scared. My parents were constantly trying to keep me in action, and telling me things about death, that people never get back etcetera. Every night, before going to sleep, I was telling my sister that I love her but that I cannot see her again.
6 weeks passed and I was getting better and better everyday, I was nearly completely healthy in a sense. Today, my therapist said it was our last meet and that I had got over schizophrenia. For some reason, deep inside,I was feeling extremely afraid, for... I don't even know why. I tried to ignore the weird feelings and go on with my life. My family was so good with me! They didn't mention death like, EVER and my sisters were playing with me every day. So, my parents announced us that we were going a trip to Scotland, and that we will visit ancient castles, monuments and many more! They also told us that we were leaving... TOMORROW and that we would have to pack our things from today so that we could leave immediately.
The trip to the airport was kind of boring, the flight too, whick both included me listening to rock music and playing Candy Crush on my phone. When we arrived at our hotel, I felt like somebody was starring at me for the whole trip from the airport to the hotel. I had learnt to ignore these feelings. It was getting late so we decided to eat dinner and then sleep.
The other day, we went on a little trip to a big lake, ate, and then started going to an ancient castle, where we were going to build a campfire and bake marshmallows. THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS FEELING LIKE SOMEBODY WAS FOLLOWING US!!! And apparently I was right...
TO BE CONTINUED
My therapist told me I was special. She said I was very bright and that I was getting better everyday. I also heard her telling my parents that I can "win" schizophrenia without medication, but I had to believe them and be more open-minded. I could see the difference in my family since that day. My sisters were more OK talking to me, without being insecure or scared. My parents were constantly trying to keep me in action, and telling me things about death, that people never get back etcetera. Every night, before going to sleep, I was telling my sister that I love her but that I cannot see her again.
6 weeks passed and I was getting better and better everyday, I was nearly completely healthy in a sense. Today, my therapist said it was our last meet and that I had got over schizophrenia. For some reason, deep inside,I was feeling extremely afraid, for... I don't even know why. I tried to ignore the weird feelings and go on with my life. My family was so good with me! They didn't mention death like, EVER and my sisters were playing with me every day. So, my parents announced us that we were going a trip to Scotland, and that we will visit ancient castles, monuments and many more! They also told us that we were leaving... TOMORROW and that we would have to pack our things from today so that we could leave immediately.
The trip to the airport was kind of boring, the flight too, whick both included me listening to rock music and playing Candy Crush on my phone. When we arrived at our hotel, I felt like somebody was starring at me for the whole trip from the airport to the hotel. I had learnt to ignore these feelings. It was getting late so we decided to eat dinner and then sleep.
The other day, we went on a little trip to a big lake, ate, and then started going to an ancient castle, where we were going to build a campfire and bake marshmallows. THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS FEELING LIKE SOMEBODY WAS FOLLOWING US!!! And apparently I was right...
TO BE CONTINUED
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