Hey- if you guys didn't already didn't know I am Mewl.
I am an old member of the community who quite semi-recently...
From me quitting I have had a lot of guilt for what I had done to people on the Network and
I would like to be the person I have grown to be and say sorry to all the people I was immature towards
and hurt previously on the network.
I will be 100% honest- I used to gossip, I used to say things I shouldn't have, Mess about with people
and worst of all say things to my 'Friends" because I had major trust issues and believed I would lose them if I didn't have an interesting story anymore- as in most cases my stories/chats were truths they were just fabricated versions of the truth to make the situation more interesting for my 'Friends' at the time...
Since I did this I have never done such anymore - I know this makes me seem very untrustable but I promise you I have changed and would really like you to forgive me for what I have done and started a new chapter in my life.
One major issue I am thinking might occur after posting this is people thinking what I told them is false - if we ever had a professional relationship via Insights, Beta Testers I never did such a thing as a stood my hardest to keep that as professional as possible... At this current time in my life, I am still struggling with my Mental Health (as diagnosed) and am trying my best to overcome the hurdles in my life.
I have become a better person and am trying my best to mend the situations I had with players and staff and most of the Ex-Staff I would love to be allowed back to be your friend and I 100% understand if it takes you time to trust me again as if I was in your position I wouldn't do such a thing... But I can promise you I will never do such a thing again as even now I don't feel like that was me-
Ways I got help -
I was given a new medication, I had weeks of meetings every day to try and assist me to try to help me! What successfully helped me tremendously and I am glad they did.
Main people, I would love to say sorry to
@llatekate -
@Kirstree -
@Valiencian -
@Vanna -
@Iruu -
@Desertmeadow -
Finally, I would like to say once again I am very sorry for everything I ever did and I will never do such a thing again- Love you all
I am an old member of the community who quite semi-recently...
From me quitting I have had a lot of guilt for what I had done to people on the Network and
I would like to be the person I have grown to be and say sorry to all the people I was immature towards
and hurt previously on the network.
I will be 100% honest- I used to gossip, I used to say things I shouldn't have, Mess about with people
and worst of all say things to my 'Friends" because I had major trust issues and believed I would lose them if I didn't have an interesting story anymore- as in most cases my stories/chats were truths they were just fabricated versions of the truth to make the situation more interesting for my 'Friends' at the time...
Since I did this I have never done such anymore - I know this makes me seem very untrustable but I promise you I have changed and would really like you to forgive me for what I have done and started a new chapter in my life.
One major issue I am thinking might occur after posting this is people thinking what I told them is false - if we ever had a professional relationship via Insights, Beta Testers I never did such a thing as a stood my hardest to keep that as professional as possible... At this current time in my life, I am still struggling with my Mental Health (as diagnosed) and am trying my best to overcome the hurdles in my life.
I have become a better person and am trying my best to mend the situations I had with players and staff and most of the Ex-Staff I would love to be allowed back to be your friend and I 100% understand if it takes you time to trust me again as if I was in your position I wouldn't do such a thing... But I can promise you I will never do such a thing again as even now I don't feel like that was me-
Ways I got help -
I was given a new medication, I had weeks of meetings every day to try and assist me to try to help me! What successfully helped me tremendously and I am glad they did.
Main people, I would love to say sorry to
@llatekate -
I am very sorry for what I put you through I shouldn't have ever have been that immature in any of the situations I was given and when I was speaking to you I should have been mature and not messed about with you and the thing with @Richi was silly and neither of us should have done that and I can speak for both of us when I say that
@Kirstree -
I know you do not staff anymore, but that doesn't change the sorrow I feel for what I did- trying to make you punish someone who wasn't needed and exploding a situation that wasn't that big, but in the good that is what finally made me decide to change my ways
@Valiencian -
Same with you ... you do not staff anymore but I did explode some issues we had over the top and I would be very happy if you could forgive me and give me one more chance even though you have given me multiple chances in the past and I do understand if you don't.
@Vanna -
- I am sorry for us, we never really got to speak and what I said about your old name was not right and I am sorry- if I was in your position I would be offended as well.
@Iruu -
You have always been there for me, and I have no remembrance of you not like me and you have stuck with me and I am so glad you did because you mean so much to me and If we ever did have an argument I am sorry about that and I always felt I could be real with you as you understood me and accepted me for me.
@Desertmeadow -
You are the best friend I could ask for and we drifted so sadly and that broke my heart, I miss you so much and I am glad you were my friend.
Finally, I would like to say once again I am very sorry for everything I ever did and I will never do such a thing again- Love you all
