I feel like I need to ask for advise about this.
I use games to drown my pain, but then when i'm done playing it all comes back. The feeling of fear...
I just feel like I'm alone. I'm so different from my family, I currently get a weird feeling like my heart beats really fast and I start to feel hot when I'm around strangers, as if I'm wearing layers of clothing when I'm not. I feel like I'm cutting myself off from the world, I just need help. I think I may have social anxiety, anxiety, or depression but I'm scared to tell my family about it. I don't think they'd take it serious, and considering all the issues their going through I don't want to bug them about what could just be a false alarm. I've been going through a lot, and I just need a break. Im currently having issues with my school, and my family. I feel stressed out but don't know how to handle it, and as for the social anxiety/anxiety/depression thing, I took all the online quizzes I could find too see if I have it or not, and tried putting in the most truthful answers. Each time it said I could have it, or you have it, or something like that. I'm scared, I'm confused, and each time I go out it gets worst. I love going out to stores, or just getting out of the house, but each time I do I get sad because I see other families smiling and laughing, and I see friends hanging out, so I just can't help but feel different. Whenever I'm near somebody I just think they're always giving me a judging stare, and whenever somebody looks at me or I'm asked to go grab something like some milk when I'm out with my family, and I go alone, I get really hot and my heart starts going fast, and sometimes I feel dizzy, and I feel like I can't get a word out. I always just want to get out of that situation whenever I can, and whenever I feel scared like when I was way younger and I thought I broke my computer I got a weird feeling in my stomach, and got somewhat-dizzy. I don't understand why this happened, but when I was younger I wanted to feeling to go away SO bad that I kept saying in my head " You didn't break it, silly! It's just frozen for a second! It'll fix in no time, now calm down. " I still do this up to now, though I never believed myself back then, nor do I believe myself now. I began experiencing the same feelings whenever I feel like I did something, I feel guilty. I got weird scared feelings whenever I'm near other people when I was younger too, ESPECIALLY people my age. I'm confused and don't know what it all meant, up till about a year ago I learned about social anxiety, and the second I did I wanted to learn as much as possible on it. The more I learned, the more I got suspicious about myself, and maybe that was the cause of my weirdness? But I can't tell if I'm just shy, introverted, or if I really do have social anxiety or possibly just anxiety. At night when I'm meant to sleep, I nearly always think of all the things i've done in my past that I wished I could take back, or just wished I did something like studied more in my past. I kept judging myself, and I could never find out why I did this. I tried top stop doing it by telling myself there's nothing to fix, though it didn't quite work... So, what I need is advise on whether I should tell somebody or get it checked, or not. Maybe I'm just shy, or over-reacting? I can't tell anymore.
I didn't know where else to talk about this, so why not on the server that helps me with this. This server has always felt like a way to be happy, and a place to forget about my life, and make a new happy life, even if it only lasts a day or few hours. A life where I can be social, and happy, and have friends.
I just need to know I have some friends with me, even if I don't.
Im trying to fix myself, I'm sorry if this is not allowed to be posted on here.
I needed to say this and get it off my mind, because I know I couldn't say this to somebody in real life, so maybe since nobody knows who I really am on here, it'd be fine.
I can delete this if it isn't wanted or allowed. I'm sorry, but I do need advise and don't know where else to go. This server is like my home.
I use games to drown my pain, but then when i'm done playing it all comes back. The feeling of fear...
I just feel like I'm alone. I'm so different from my family, I currently get a weird feeling like my heart beats really fast and I start to feel hot when I'm around strangers, as if I'm wearing layers of clothing when I'm not. I feel like I'm cutting myself off from the world, I just need help. I think I may have social anxiety, anxiety, or depression but I'm scared to tell my family about it. I don't think they'd take it serious, and considering all the issues their going through I don't want to bug them about what could just be a false alarm. I've been going through a lot, and I just need a break. Im currently having issues with my school, and my family. I feel stressed out but don't know how to handle it, and as for the social anxiety/anxiety/depression thing, I took all the online quizzes I could find too see if I have it or not, and tried putting in the most truthful answers. Each time it said I could have it, or you have it, or something like that. I'm scared, I'm confused, and each time I go out it gets worst. I love going out to stores, or just getting out of the house, but each time I do I get sad because I see other families smiling and laughing, and I see friends hanging out, so I just can't help but feel different. Whenever I'm near somebody I just think they're always giving me a judging stare, and whenever somebody looks at me or I'm asked to go grab something like some milk when I'm out with my family, and I go alone, I get really hot and my heart starts going fast, and sometimes I feel dizzy, and I feel like I can't get a word out. I always just want to get out of that situation whenever I can, and whenever I feel scared like when I was way younger and I thought I broke my computer I got a weird feeling in my stomach, and got somewhat-dizzy. I don't understand why this happened, but when I was younger I wanted to feeling to go away SO bad that I kept saying in my head " You didn't break it, silly! It's just frozen for a second! It'll fix in no time, now calm down. " I still do this up to now, though I never believed myself back then, nor do I believe myself now. I began experiencing the same feelings whenever I feel like I did something, I feel guilty. I got weird scared feelings whenever I'm near other people when I was younger too, ESPECIALLY people my age. I'm confused and don't know what it all meant, up till about a year ago I learned about social anxiety, and the second I did I wanted to learn as much as possible on it. The more I learned, the more I got suspicious about myself, and maybe that was the cause of my weirdness? But I can't tell if I'm just shy, introverted, or if I really do have social anxiety or possibly just anxiety. At night when I'm meant to sleep, I nearly always think of all the things i've done in my past that I wished I could take back, or just wished I did something like studied more in my past. I kept judging myself, and I could never find out why I did this. I tried top stop doing it by telling myself there's nothing to fix, though it didn't quite work... So, what I need is advise on whether I should tell somebody or get it checked, or not. Maybe I'm just shy, or over-reacting? I can't tell anymore.
I didn't know where else to talk about this, so why not on the server that helps me with this. This server has always felt like a way to be happy, and a place to forget about my life, and make a new happy life, even if it only lasts a day or few hours. A life where I can be social, and happy, and have friends.
I just need to know I have some friends with me, even if I don't.
Im trying to fix myself, I'm sorry if this is not allowed to be posted on here.
I needed to say this and get it off my mind, because I know I couldn't say this to somebody in real life, so maybe since nobody knows who I really am on here, it'd be fine.
I can delete this if it isn't wanted or allowed. I'm sorry, but I do need advise and don't know where else to go. This server is like my home.
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